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3rMx...TiSh IsH mOi 2005 FiRsT bLoG....

HeRe IsH hOw Th3 sToRy Go3s....I nOe HiM sInCe SeC 2 At FiRsT i DoSeNt LiKe HiM....bUt AfTeR sUm TiMe I sTaRt To LiKe HiM....bUt I dIdNt TeLl AnIoNe....CoS i ScAr3 aT tAt TiMe MoI gAn Ji3 lIk3 hIm ToO...sO i DeCiDe To GiF uP...bUt Wh3n I wAnNa GiF uP mOi HeArT hUrTs AlOt....N d3n I notice tat I was already deeply in love wif him...but I didnt let ani one noe...cos I was so scare....but now...tish year I grew lot more closer to him...I tok to him, play wif him bball n cards.....he oso cycle n let mi sit behind him....his back was sooo warm....at first I didnt dare hold his waist...so i onli hold the bike sit...but when he purposely cycle fast I was scare so no choice I hold n is more like hug...his back was warm n I can hear his heart beat ....it was nice....but one the last week of the sch b4 sch holidays come...on the friday...one of my god sis ask him whether he gt like ani one...n he said yes a ger frm another court...when I noe the answer I was sad...but I didnt cry...cos I dun hav the courage to cry....cos I noe if I cry means I really gif up on him...so I nv cry...but every time I goin to gif up on him...he appear infront of mi on a same day twice....so I really cant gif up....but each time I c him I really feel like cryin...but moi tears jus cant row out...but I really still love him alot....even though he dosent noe....haix...feel soooo much better now......

NoW { PART 3 } : I jus can't forget him how....and shld my bf put his whole heart in mi...

Haix....how ani one can help mi....I really wanna forget him but I jus can't...it hurts...todae 18/10 my frenz ask mi tis qns : shld my bf put whole heart in mi ? what am I gonna answer but I hope he dun cos I dunnoe wat to do now oso....is like I betrayin him....I can't whole hearted love him then I dun desever his whole heart oso....I really dunnoe wat to do I really wan to forget him but it hurts.....now my bf 2 months more goin NS mayb it can test mi if I really love him at that time....

~~......I really wanna forget him truly......~~

Now { Part 2 } : A new guy loves mi wif whole heart but I can onli gif him my heart bit by bit

Our story starts on 6/10.....

He loves mi alot but I jus can't gif him my heart fully.....he treated mi like a jewel...but wat did I treat him as....I can sae I love him but izzit truly frm my heart...my answer fo tis is No.....but I really tryin hard to love him....I giving my heart to him bit by bit.....I wan to keep the promise.....I wan to keep the trust....

~~~~.....Trust Mi I Really Tryin 2 Love U Wif My Whole Heart.....~~~~

Now { Part 1} : A new guy loves mi wif whole heart but I can onli gif him my heart bit by bit

He & mi met each other at basketball court.....he asked mi stead but I didn't answer him....alot of ppl ask mi to gif him chance and try for it may b he can b trusted....trufully at first I wan to tell him NO but he did sum thing that touch my heart....no one noe may b even himself didn't noe....and thats how our story begin....

Past : The Story starts on 25/7 but it ends veri fast.....

He and I noe each other for weeks....and we stead on 25/7....I love him wif my heart...and I trust him...but he took away my trust and love.....I can still remember him in my heart....his taken my heart away...but I can't do anithing now....his now my god bro...but I dun wan him to b my god bro...but he already hav sum one esle but most Surprised...is his stead is my gan jie jie...the one I trusted most.....but y....I knew it long ago after we break...it was the most hurtin thing that I ever heard...is like a thousand knife pirece through my heart....it hurts....alot...I cut my wrist for him....I injured for him...I fight for him but he dosen't noe....I cry for him he oso didn't noe.....watever I do he dosen't noe....but I really wan him to noe that I really love him...even till I die....may b my life can't b long...but I really wan him to noe one thing is that....
I LOVE U !!!